1. I am not a very emotional person... I don't cry very often and if I do no one will usually ever see it. Now I feel like the smallest things will make me cry! I don't know what these pregnancy hormones are doing but I don't think I like it.
2. I felt so confident about this semester and knew I could finish even though my baby is due in the middle of my practicum. Now that school has started and all the work is piling on I feel so overwhelmed and I am scared of how stressful and challenging this semester will be. I hate the thought of having my baby and having to go right back to school as soon as possible. I think it is going to tear me apart being away everyday right after she is born. Finishing my education is SO important to me but so is being a mom...
3. My body aches and I am not sleeping well... some nights I am so uncomfortable I feel like I hardly slept because I was tossing and turning all night. Not to mention that I get up at least 5 times to pee. My lower back and right hip must be out of adjustment... when I sit to long I can barely walk normal when I stand up.
4. Now to top it all off... I think I am getting sick which is not a good way to start the semester off. My head is pounding and every inch of my body aches. I can't take any medicine besides Tylenol because I am pregnant but Tylenol isn't doing a thing.
Thank you for letting me complain for a minute. I really don't normally do that. I think I just needed to write that down and get it out of the way. I shouldn't be complaining though because I have so many things to be grateful for such as:
1. I have a wonderful, loving, generous, and thoughtful husband who works so hard everyday to support our family.
2. I live in a beautiful home, in a great neighborhood, with the best ward.
3. I have a little baby girl growing inside of me who I have so much love for and can't wait until I can finally hold her!
4. My Parents moved out to Utah which made the start of 2011 a GREAT year.
5. I have amazing teachers who are working with me so that I can finish school and graduate as soon as possible with a baby.
6. I have the gospel and the Savior to rely on when I am not feeling 100% which brings me so much comfort.
Thank you for letting me vent a little bit. Like I said I am not one to complain especially when there are so many people going through so many more challenges than I am right now. Mine are just minor but sometimes it just feels good to write them down.
I know how you feel! Try pillows all around you even if your hubby has to stick them under your back! sleeping can get tough but it's all worth it:) Ps. We should try and get together sometime when you're not so busy and if you have a shower in UT definitely let me know I would love to come!
ReplyDeleteJenaca, I can totally relate to you. I am not a complainer and I absolutely LOVE being pregnant, but as with everything, pregnancy has its downsides too.
ReplyDeleteI hope you feel better. I hate not sleeping well at night and I've been having insomnia, and I always have while I am pregnant. Not counting that it is already so hard to find a good position to sleep.
Just hang in there and it will be all right!
I am glad to hear that your parents moved to UT. Where are they living?
xoxo
Beka
The good news is that almost all of those aches and pains will go away once she is born. That still means a few more weeks enduring, but it is worth it. Hang in there. I think you are amazing and strong. Sometimes you have to push through the hard parts of life and look back and realize how much you have grown.
ReplyDeletelove your honesty. love your gratitude. love you! hope life is treating you well!
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