Hudson has been in the NICU for 15 days now. He is on request feedings which means instead of feeding him every three hours they let him decide when he wants to eat. He can go up to 4 hours before myself or the nurse wake to feed him. When he eats he has to eat a minimum of 40 ml's. If he passes the request feeding after 24 hours he will go to on demand. That means his nose tube will be taken out and he will once again be able to decide when he is ready to eat. If he passes on demand, he can come home the next day. That means he could possibly be home with us this Friday, May 15th. I am trying not to get my hopes up in case he isn't able to come home but we are so anxious and excited to have him with us.
I felt a little discouraged this morning because the nurse called me and said that he did not pass his oxygen test which means he will need to come home on oxygen and monitors. Tammy Lee came home on oxygen and it was so hard dealing with all the chords. Going anywhere was a huge hassle because I had to carry a big tank around along with a monitor. I don't know how I will be able to leave the house with all his supplies and Savannah and Tammy Lee. We will most likely be spending a lot of time at home. I am deff grateful for all they can do nowadays for premature babies. I so badly wish I could carry full term. It would be so dreamy to have your baby, take them home, and not have to worry about the NICU and all the challenges that come along with preterm babies.
Anytime I am feeling discouraged, exhausted, and sad I just remind myself that I Can Do Hard Things.
These two have been so patient with me having to leave multiple times a day. It has been harder on Tammy Lee than Savannah and she gets really nervous each time I drop them off at someone's home.